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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 21.06.2025 06:40

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I was seconnd youngest,

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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She married twice! .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I want to touch my sister’s boobs. What do I say?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

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Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

But it wasn’t much.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

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Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

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Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

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Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

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As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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He knew the spot.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Can I see some anal hole?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

(And it was in our own minds.)

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She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I have no regrets .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

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He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I will be 64.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

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I write beautiful poetry .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

All the time i was locked up.

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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Comes on , in middle age.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

My life is so biszare .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

It was going to be , some day.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

She loved him until the end.

Was to survive, this bastard.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Why did i forgive my father ?

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

This is soul school!.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

They are buried together, in the same grave..

So, i spoilt her more .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She wouldn,t have been !

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She found it foreign!.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

One cannot live in the past .

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Ive learnt so much.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I was scared of men, in general

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

But, we were locked up after school.

What did i know ?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I never cut or harmed myself..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I said to her

Who then, do I blame.?

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I was 9 years of age.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I think the readers, may guess!

I waited trembling.

I couldn’t, believe it.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

We all went to grammer schools

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

And i lived it daily.

My family never makes their pension either.

I don,t even have a pension.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

She was in good health!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Put me off passion for life!!

I was very sick at this time too.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

This is how, and why children get BPD.

As i do to all so called friends.?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

We were not on the streets..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

When she asked me how she looked .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

So whats the point in blame.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Would this be the day?

Im still living with it.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Especially a lifetime of it.

But ive been too sick for many years..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.